Inside Voices: Intuition and Guidance Within

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“We all have an inner voice, our personal whisper from the universe. All we have to do is listen -- feel and sense it with an open heart. Sometimes it whispers of intuition or precognition. Other times, it whispers an awareness, a remembrance from another plane. Dare to listen. Dare to hear with your heart.” ― C.J. Heck, Bits and Pieces: Short Stories from a Writer's Soul

What If They Think I'm Nuts?

Most of us do not talk about the voices in our heads, yet we all have them; the common thoughts that we have are turned into the voices; often taking on the sound of the person who originally said them as in the critical or negative voice.

I also have a Mouse voice that squeaks with fear each time I undertake a new beginning. There is also, my Librarian Voice that keeps a record of outcomes. I have a Big Girl voice that encourages the Mouse to take action even when Mouse is afraid.

All of these voices in my head clamor for attention and compete with the voices of friends, acquaintances, and others when I ask for and receive advice. I hear their advising words outside of me.

Then There is the Guiding Voice Within

I know that the thoughts in my mind are thinking.

What others are saying is hearing.

Nonetheless, a Guiding Voice seems to occupy space between these two places. It is outside of my mind, yet within and inside of my hearing, but not a thought.

Experiencing the Guiding Voice

I have had many experiences since I got into recovery in 1988 that I could not explain any other way than to label it my Inner Guiding Voice or the “voice between the thoughts and hearing.”

I have come to depend on this voice for guidance or an AH moment, when I find peace in the purpose or answer, and the feeling of certainty of action.

I know that it is always present even when I do not notice it; rather like our concept of a half moon.

The Guiding Voice Has Always Been There

I would like to say that the Guiding Voice only came because of getting into recovery and being able to meditate and quiet the mind; however, that is not my experience with this guidance.

I received guidance in my drug use as well; it was a very quiet, yet firm male voice that told me to, “Wake Up”, when I was about to overdose. I had also heard it when I was in a dangerous neighborhood picking up drugs, telling me to “Get out of here, now.”

The night I left the neighborhood, without going to the pickup point, there was a police raid. I avoided an arrest so I had experience that this voice gave me advice and guidance that was in my best interest.

The irony was that in my use, I listened and followed the advice without mentally arguing or wondering why I should heed any warning.

Questioning the Guiding Voice in Recovery

After I entered treatment in 1988, I saw a tremendous need for a women’s recovery home and opened one in 1990. Shortly after I opened, I was travelling about 50 miles to Atlanta to do an interview with a woman incarcerated in a jail.

We had talked by phone, however, inmates at that time were limited to 10 minutes for a phone call, so I wanted to meet her face to face to determine if the house would be a good fit for her, as well as her appropriateness for the house.

About 15 miles into my trip, the Guiding Voice said, “Turn around and go home.” This was the first time I had heard it this loudly in my recovery.

Without thinking of the times that this voice was my salvation, I start mentally arguing with the guidance; rationalizing that I had to get to Atlanta; this woman could not come to me for the interview, and that I was not going to listen to some “odd voice.”

Guidance Will Try to Get our Attention

About 2 miles later, the windshield of my van literally vanished and what flashed before my eyes, was the van, on its left side sliding down the highway; sparks flying and heading towards the concrete underside of an overhead road.

This scared me immensely. I got off at the next exit and sat for a minute to collect my thoughts and let my heart stop racing.

I did not drive to the recovery home, as I did not want the residents to see me this upset. I questioned whether this was some drug flashback from my use and in general was too stunned to go anywhere but to my mothers.

The Guiding Voice Was Right

When I got there, two men from my recovery support meetings were mowing her lawn. When I got out of the van, one said to me, “You can’t drive that; look at your tire.” When I did, there was a section of rubber missing, down to metal.

I asked them what would likely have happened if I tried to drive to Atlanta. They both said that since my van was so top heavy, when the tire blew, it would topple the van, left side down and slide down the highway. This was an uncanny description of what I had seen.

Since I was on the left side, with my window down, I realized the physical damage I would have sustained even if I did not crash into the concrete.

Warnings, Guidance, and Paying Attention

So, what was this warning? Why did I experience both a visual and verbal warning? I do not have that answer, other than to say that this Guiding Voice has counseled me on other occasions and after accepting that this voice will always have my best interest at heart, I have tried to make an effort to listen without arguing.

Meditating and Hearing

At about 2 years into my recovery, I was meditating on the individuals that I owed amends to for my past actions. I was planning to visit my daughters in Washington, DC and knew that I had people to see for this purpose.

When I reflected on the harm that I had caused people, I asked for guidance on how best to approach them so they would understand my sincerity in wanting to correct the harm in whatever way they determined was best for them.

For most of the individuals, a calm peacefulness came over me and I knew that I was correct in approaching them.

However, I got to one individual, and I heard the Guiding Voice, say, “Not now.” Still unconvinced that this was the correct message, I opened my eyes and started explaining and discussing in my head why it should be now.

This individual had been quite promiscuous and gay. HIV/AIDS were still a semi-death sentence in 1991 and I was concerned that I would find him sick or dying and I needed to connect with him to make amends.

Still the Guiding Voice said, “Not now.” At this point, I listened.

I went to DC, made other amends, and returned to Georgia. Ten months later, I was returning to DC; meditated on this individual, and heard, “Now.”

Listening Creates the Possibility of Other Outcomes

When I spoke with my former friend, his first comment was, “You are doing something that I am only now becoming familiar with – making amends. I just got clean 4 months ago. Whatever you think you owe me put it into the recovery of the women in your house.”

That took me aback and I asked him what his reaction would have been if I had tried to make amends 10 months prior. His response was, “Without being clean myself and understanding the process, you would be paying up the Wazoo, girl.”

Both of these experiences were years ago, but that voice still alerts, cautions, and points me in the right direction.

Messages are Different for Each of Us

I find it interesting that my Guiding Voice is so binary or two sided, yet uncomplicated with an on/off, stop/go, yes/no, or now/not now.

I know other people who have very complex guidance….mine is what it is, and mine is correct for me.

Learn to Be Quiet

I would encourage you to learn to be quiet of mind, to deliberately reflect and be mindful of the inner guidance. I believe our inner guidance wants to be helpful however, we have to learn to listen for it and to it and and that only comes when we are paying attention to it and not the chatter of our thoughts or the musings of others.

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
A Certified Addiction Recovery Empowerment Specialist, with 25 years of abstinence-based recovery. I write about addictions, recovery, life lessons and general writing tips.

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
12th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Evening, Mark. Thank you for moderating the page. ~Marilyn

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author avatar Connie McKinney
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Wow, whatever the guiding voice was, it certainly led you down the right paths and away from danger, Marilyn. Very interesting as usual.

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Evening, Connie. Thank you. ~Marilyn

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author avatar Phyl Campbell
13th Oct 2013 (#)

I have many, many conversations with myself. It is more accepted now that I have embraced the book-writing part of myself. However, I've often said it's one sure way to have an intelligent (albeit wacky) conversation!! ;) Nice article. Full of good info.

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Morning, Phyl. Thanks. Our muse, our Guiding Voice, and those inspired moments sometimes do make for interesting copy. ~Marilyn

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author avatar Michelle Stanley
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Hello Marilyn,
You wrote a nicely detailed account of your past experiences. Sometimes it is good to listen to the voices we hear. Some call them "a hunch," like what you had when you left the unsafe neighbourhood. Some writers usually say the voices are their muses, and name each of them. Muses are the ones who whisper the words into a writer's' ears, so all a writer has to do is type them. - Michelle

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Evening, Michelle. Thanks for the comments. ~Marilyn

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author avatar Stella Mitchell
13th Oct 2013 (#)

It is good to have discernment before we act on the voice we hear , Marilyn .
Bless you
Stella ><

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Evening Stella; you are absolutely correct. ~marilyn

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author avatar Denise Salmon
13th Oct 2013 (#)

It is always good to listen to the guiding voice, nice article

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
13th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Evening, Denise. Thank you for the kind comment. I appreciate it. ~Marilyn

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author avatar Fern Mc Costigan
14th Oct 2013 (#)

Interesting post!

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
14th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Morning, Fern. Thanks. ~Marilyn

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author avatar cnwriter..carolina
14th Oct 2013 (#)

important yes to clarify which voice we are listening to..if mine speaks of loving I listen...otherwise no!!! thank you for this piece..

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author avatar MarilynDavisatTIERS
14th Oct 2013 (#)

Good Morning, Carolina. No doubt that we have to distinguish between the caring and loving or the other. ~Marilyn

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