Life On Automatic

Linda Poitras By Linda Poitras, 12th Jul 2016 | Follow this author | RSS Feed | Short URL http://nut.bz/2fkirkcy/
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Doing something different and out of my ordinary this morning. I'm going to be telling you a little story, but first, let me ask you a hypothetical question:

Have you ever just sat back, feeling numb and like your head was in the clouds, know where you wanted to go, where your supposed to be but just have absolutely no idea how to get there?

Good Morning Everybody ...


Doing something different and out of my ordinary this morning. I'm going to be telling you a little story, but first, let me ask you a hypothetical question:

Have you ever just sat back, feeling numb and like your head was in the clouds, know where you wanted to go, where your supposed to be but just have absolutely no idea how to get there?

Have you ever ...

Once upon a time, you decided to take a journey. The journey appeared beautiful, fun, full of potential, full of promise. You pictured your life happy. You wanted it so bad that for the first time in your life, you dove in without a second thought.

Keeping your eyes on the journey ahead, you came across a few bumps in the road. It happens. You stand. Rattled a little, you look around. You shake it up. Look ahead and see your journey.

Then, one night you go to bed sad and still, through the blur of a few tears, you see the journey you're on.

Fun. Laughs. Relief. Affection. Again, sleep comes with tears and a blur of your journey.
You fall. A little blood. The blur prevented you from seeing the stone. You wipe your eyes. You get up. Lift your chin. Take a deep breath. You close your eyes. You struggle a little through the blur to see.

There it is ... your journey.

Life. Peace. Love. Laughs, lots of laughs. Happy. Adventures. Connection. Feelings. Affection. Good. Reeling. Smiles. Nights of no tears. No blurs. Peaceful rest. Breathe. Just breathe.

Fall. Big fall. Hurt. A lot of Hurt. Tears. Can't breathe. Panic. Hurt. So much hurt.
Get up. Limp. Eyes closed. Deep breath is choked. Open eyes. Reality. Journey is black. Look around. Where do you go? Tears. More tears.

You wake up one morning, open your eyes and feel like for the first time in a long time you can see where you are. Right then and there, you get hit with a sort of panic that takes over you because you don't know how you got here.

You've been living your life on automatic.

You've been moving forward, acting and reacting to follow the journey you chose. Waiting. Now, awake, you're unsure about what you really want. You don't know if it's really what you want anymore. You don't know how to get off this track you've been running on or if you want to. You don't want to miss what you've been waiting for. Murphy's law has it it always appears when you turn your back or stop paying attention. You've been waiting a long time for this. You can't give up. You have to continue.

You feel so disconnected.

So lost. You lost your passion and purpose. You're so unsure. You don't know what to feel about anything. You don't even know if you're doing things because you want to or if you're doing things because it's what you're supposed to do at this point.

One day, something happens.

Someone you know of dies. A message was left. You feel jolted. You have to stop and think. You take this long hard look at yourself and where you've been and can't believe how far off track you've gotten. You had a journey. A path. Something concrete. What happened? Where did it go?

You've been going through the motion and waiting for so long you lost site of everything. You lost site of yourself.

It wasn't what it was supposed to be.

You were supposed to grow. This person who passed, had talked about waking up to realize there was more to life then existing. You could have more. You used to believe that too. You used to be hopeful. You used to see goodness. You used to believe. Somehow you got sidetracked. You became blind.

You're awake now. What do you do? Go back to being blind or take control of your life again?

It's not easy trying to find direction. It's harder to close your eyes again and pretend you didn't just wake up.

One step at a time. One breath at a time.

Left ... Right.

In ... Out.

Just because you fell, just because you've made mistakes, doesn't mean you avoid the present and look for a future. One day at a time. One step at a time. One breath at a time.

You get up. You get going. You get started.

See yourself. Invest in yourself. If you don't like yourself, no one else can. If you don't believe in yourself, how can others do? If you don't see your true self, no one else will. People see what you show them.

Here's a new path to your journey. I hope you're not alone. If you are? You're still not alone. You're never really alone.

Does the hurt stop? I don't know. Does the uncertainty clear? I hope so. Do you ever find a connection again? God, I hope so. Do you ever feel whole again? Here's what I've been told, ... the answer is yes.

So keep going. Don't stop.

Here's a song to hopefully inspire you today. If nothing I hope it at least puts a bee bop to your step

Tom Cochrane - Life Is A Highway

Well friends, I gotta go for a bit. I wish you all a great day. Be good to one another and don't take your freedom for granted because it's not a given for everyone to do so.

I know sometimes it's hard ... but you can do this ... take a deep breath ...
one ... two ... three ... go!

SMILE! .... you're on life's candid camera!

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